D’Arvit!

I was reading Steph’s latest blog entry about “The Eight Random Things” blog meme that I passed on a couple of weeks ago, and I can’t help but smile at her recollections.

Cha’s entry on starting all over again [she went off to attend university in the UK, but then got in a better program in Australia after a year] has made me nod and sigh all at the same time [although discrimination where I live isn't as terrible as what they do in Australia].

Each time I talk to my old friends that I’ve left over there, I can’t help but feel amazed at how quickly things change: only nine “regulars” left back in my old UP Manila block, you-know-who is now going out with no-f*cking-way, whatshername is now taking up medicine, and somebody would be leaving again for the US.

I’ve been seeing a pattern lately, and one word would sum it all up: change. I never really thought about it, but I guess being so far from everyone you’ve loved [and still love ] have given me a better perspective on life and the universe and [pardon the H2G2 reference] everything. [Look, Google agrees with Deep Thought as well! ]

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I’ve been doing a lot of packing and cleaning these past few days because we’ll be moving to our newly-built house very soon. I have a bad habit of holding on to the past, honestly–I had a hard time throwing away those little receipts and notes and various little knick-knacks gathering dust in my room. It’s just that, like what Cha said, once you’ve settled down and have become familiar with everything, something better comes, but then you have to once again get up, pack up, and move on.

I still have Julie’s palanca box she gave me back in senior year: I kept all my letters and palancas in there. I think I even had the retreat candle and the candle holder [that I unintentionally burned during the dramatic sharing session!] in that box.

I even cleaned up this blog’s blogroll [see my sidebar], and I had a hard time deleting my friends’ unused URLs! I removed those blogs that never get updated anymore [even if they had a link back to my old dot.tk URL]. [A shout-out to Teresa: whatever happened to sqecial.net? ]

I look at my Y!M friends list, and I am amazed each day at how different people look like: why the F have you all turned into brunettes, all of a sudden?! XD I see how everybody’s busy [I guess we all are], how **** has become a snob after all that we’ve been through [I hate you. ], how things happen so quickly…

I’m not making sense at all, am I?

Well, I guess holding on to the past isn’t that bad, right?

I got this from a Fortune Cookie that I just opened a few weeks ago:

“Accept something that you cannot change, and you will feel better.”

I can’t change the fact that things change and that I must pack up and move on. Maybe once I do, I definitely would start feeling better.

[Sometimes, I start believeing in these damned fortune cookies, it's scary! XD ]